Monday, November 2, 2009
I am in the middle of my new WIP and feeling extremely stressed. This work is by far my best, and I want to finish it. I feel like I've finally found my voice, and I just want to let it flow, but my day job is getting in the way.
I cannot afford to quit my day job, or worse, lose it, so of course all of my effort has to go to getting things done at work, and that has been my focus for quite a while.
As most of you probably know, my day job is as a software engineering manager. I lead a group of engineers writing tools for a new chip. We have a huge opportunity in the short term if we can showcase our capabilities to a massive semiconductor company.
I've been pushing the guys really hard to meet the schedule, and I am starting to see some signs of burnout. This is the worst possible time, because our deadline is approaching.
My boss meanwhile, has been relentless in hammering on us to meet the schedule. Since we are a small startup, it really is a make or break effort.
As I'm writing this on Friday afternoon, I'm looking forward to the weekend, to at least a few hours of uninterrupted writing, but we'll see. The weekend presents it's own set of family challenges.
I really feel that this work is going to be the one that I finally break through with, and I think that's what is stressing me the most. I want to finish it.
Given the current market conditions, it's probably just as well that it isn't done today, but I want to make sure that I'm ready when things finally turn the corner.
Any of you feeling stressed to finish your latest WIP these days? How do you cope with it?