Recently I've been drifting back and forth between ideas for novels. In other words, I'm deciding how I want to spend the next six months of my writing time. It's been difficult, simply because I'm incredibly hard on my ideas and I keep asking: 'Is this idea worth the time?' I've written 6 full-length novels already, and the requested full of the last one I completed has been sitting in an agent's computer folder for three months, as I wait to hear what she thinks. The longer I wait, the less confident I get, simply because, whenever I hear about a writer landing an agent, it's usually, 'She called me one week later', or 'Three weeks later, we had a deal'. I'd love to know a story of someone who sent a full manuscript, waited ten months, then the agent said 'YES!' and the book was published soon after. Anyone know any? =)
So, anyway, I'm drifting...hoping I'll be able to dig into one of my novel ideas and make it sing. I'm done with outlines...in my case (and I'm sure other, more professionally productive writers, use outlines and write awesomely, so grain of salt) they have poisoned my last two ideas. An outline almost seems like flying over some ancient place in a helicopter, if that makes sense. There's no thrashing through the jungle, or sweat dripping off your face.
Below is a quote that I feel very fortunate to have found. It definitely lifted my spirits
Hope everyone has a good Halloween.
"Really, in the end, the only thing that can make you a writer is the person that you are, the intensity of your feeling, the honesty of your vision, the unsentimental acknowledgment of the endless interest of the life around and within you. Virtually nobody can help you deliberately -- many people will help you unintentionally."
- Santha Rama Rau